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I didn't blog yesterday! I don't know why...I had plenty of time. SO, I will blog at least twice today! I tried having a little alcohol this week-end...and it worked pretty well, but I don't think I'll do that again. Psychologically I felt as if I was cheating myself. (2 beers on Friday night and one glass of wine with dinner last night) I may reach a time when that will be OK, but not now while I am still so raw, and still so heavy!! Today I have to speak in church...I always get so nervous...but I need to remember that I don't care what other people think about me...and MEAN it!!! I'm living the best way I know how...following my inner feelings about what I should and should not be doing. No one else can decide that for me.